I've been thinking a lot about the past lately. Generally for me this is a bad idea: not that I've had a bad past (certainly not in comparison with some) but mostly because I think back and wonder how I survived while being a complete and utter plank. It's weird that thinking back I've realised that at all points in my life I consider myself an authority on subjects without really knowing much about them and consequently finding myself in embarrassing situations.
As a result I don't like to dwell upon the past however current events out of my control have led to such things. A lot of people seem to be leaving my life, or have at least one foot in the door. It feels like summer 2007 again, which to all intents and purposes was not (as expected) the greatest of summers. I finished my Leaving Cert and was moving on to college but more than that I was leaving a place which had been my haven for six years. A lot of people that I had been friends with in school didn't survive the transition for one reason or another. I meet a couple of them now and then and we make forced small talk and reminisce about days gone by but it's not the same. It's weird to think that some of the people I considered my best friends just faded away. I got on fine without them of course so it's not like I'm sitting here mopping about that, it's just sad thinking about it in comparison with things now with people emigrating or planning to emigrate. In 2007 I broke up with a long term girlfriend, we've barely spoken since either, though it's probably for the better.
The song title today should refer to the times and to some people, but not most and certainly not some. It's funny, though quite a few people complained about the boredom of last summer and that everyone had been away on little adventures I don't feel I'm missing out. I've just completed one and am moving on to the next.
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